Have a New Kid by Friday????

So I finally caved and bought yet another parenting book. This one is by Dr. Kevin Leeman. I have actually read another book by him as well, 'how to make your child mind without losing yours'. Many of the concepts are the same and just as applicable as they were when Zachary was 2. So far the just of what I have gathered is that I need to change not my children. How encouraging lol :) It is so true through. How many times so I allow myself to get pulled in to power struggles and fits where I eventually lose my cool? More than I'd like to admit. Easier said than done when your 3 children are playing around instead of getting ready for school and you know they'll miss the bus if they don't hurry up yet you are not supposed to nag, warn, threaten, or get angry. I'd have to say I had an easier time following his theories this afternoon. Mornings are so hectic the way it is! Wish me luck, tomorrow is a new day and I'm not backing down :)


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I just don't get it.

I just don't get it. Like I said I've been studying Beth Moore's study on Esther. During the last video session we went through some back history on Mordecai and Haman, 2 influential people in the book. The context was meanness always has a history, so we studied the history behind the rivalry of Haman and Mordecai. It went all the way back to Exodus when the Amelakites attacked the Israelites when the were tired and weary traveling from Egypt to the promised land. God said the he would be at war with the Amalekites from generation to generation (Ex 16:8-16). As time goes by and a couple more incidents occur between the Amalekites and Israelites on which the Amalekites preyed on the weakest, women and children. Finally we get to the boom of Samuel and God tells Saul to blot out the Amalekites, destroy all taking no plunder. Saul disobeys and brings back plunder along with their King, Agag. Why is this important? Well Haman is an Amalekite and a descendant of Agag and Mordecai is a Jew from the tribe of Benjamin and a descendant of Saul. The anger they have toward each other began hundreds of years earlier. I love learning new things. Of course with this information it makes more sense that Haman wanted to destroy the Jews. What's my point you say? My point is this, how on Earth can you say the Bible is just a book? How else do you explain the fact that the same people are mentioned, stories told, information given throughout the 66 books that were not written by the same people! That is one big coincidence if you ask me! Thank you Jesus for giving me your word, your God-breathed word for me, I don't know what I'd do without it.

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Struggling

I am really struggling here and I don't know where I went wrong! I have really tried to be consistent, have routines, have follow through, be creative in consequences, and ultimately loving but somewhere something has failed! I feel like all I do is referee a fight, deal with tattling, give time out, say the say thing over and over and over again. It is always something, it is always something, and it is never small! I fall asleep almost every night utterly exhausted and reeling from the day. Constant talk back, bad attitudes, defiance, disobedience, and lying is finally taking it's toll on me. I am at the end of my rope and I don't know where to turn!! I have tried to have a loving christian home with morals, good examples, and plenty of re-dos. I need the Lord to show me what I am doing wrong and where I need more of his guidance.
Thanks for listening, just a random vent I guess.

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My sister, my friend

My sister came in town this weekend. What a nice surprise and it had nothing to do with the fact that her favorite football team was playing her husbands football team, she came just for me :) LOL
I am just glad she came.

Didn't we get some great shots?

And then on the way home I saw the most beautiful rainbow! It completely extended from one side to the other, all the way to the ground.

I just had to pull over to the side of the road and take this pic. I couldn't get the whole rainbow in the shot without going down in the ditch, which I wasn't doing :) What a great ending to a great visit.

It's tough being a woman.....

I am so glad that I decided to start the Esther study. I have been digging around and trying to find anything and everything about Esther. Like I mentioned in an earlier post, a verse in Esther has been a faith fence post for me, when I get stressed or feel as though I just cannot do it, I remind myself of God's providence through this verse.

Sadly there isn't much out there to study Esther. There are only 2 books in the Bible named after woman yet there is barely any research on them. Because I love Beth Moore so much and her ability to bring the Word to life, I chose her study on Esther esther: It's Tough Being a Woman. Let me tell you, it is amazing and I am only 2 weeks in! I was sucked in before I even dove in to the workbook by her introductory video. God's providence is all around, you just have to take the time to look for it, and one extraordinary example of it is found in the book of Esther.

At the end of each session is a Scenario about being a woman. After she stated the first scenario I felt like all the air had left my lungs. I couldn't believe it. It was like she was putting to words everything that I was feeling and didn't realize. It's tough being a woman in another woman's shadow. WOW! I suddenly became aware how much I allowed myself to sit in the shadow of Michelle. I know that that is something that I have been working on through scripture and trying to counteract Satan's lies on, but here was this one sentence that summed it all up. I decided at that point that I was in, I need this study and God knows it.